I've been meditating for many years, but there are still days when I feel like it's something I need to tick of the to do list. On some days, particularly when I'm in the middle of a big project, it can feel hard to put even 10 minutes aside for meditation practice. The driven voice in my head tries to convince me that this practice of pausing and connecting with presence is a waste of time. It's a compelling voice particularly on days when it feels like there are so many urgent things to do. But it's especially on those days, when I manage to recognize those sabotaging thoughts for what they are, that I find so much benefit from meditating.
When I sit to meditate on these days, I immediately notice the tightness in my chest and throat and the underlying agitation of my stress. I notice my mind is spewing out to do lists in a way that makes it nearly impossible to get up and just do it all. Then I see what is happening.