Stop Thinking, Just Move: Combatting OCD

October 14, 2014 4:56 PM

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Stop Thinking, Just Move: Combatting OCD

Is there any way to get an on/off button for my thoughts? They don't shut up, they never give me a moment's peace, and I'm sick of it. My relentless OCD is the heinous b*tch behind it all. She's like a nagging, miserable old woman who refuses to cease her continuous pestering. She's not happy unless I'm worrying past the point of rational thought. She's not happy unless I'm repeating words, prayers, numbers to the point of exhaustion. She's not happy unless she has me believing that unless I do these things, my life will go to go to sh*t. I know she's wrong. I know she lies. I know she's a f*cking miserable old hag that will never be satisfied. I know I can't satisfy her, so then why do I listen? Why do I oblige her? Why do I feed the beast?

Fear. Fear is the reason I feed the beast. I fear that if I don't comply with the beast, something bad will happen. I have a constant, crippling fear that the other shoe will drop. I have a constant, crippling fear that it will be my fault. My psyche is built on fear, superstition, and guilt -- all ...

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