How My Dreams of Blissful Motherhood Became a Nightmare

January 29, 2015 8:42 PM

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How My Dreams of Blissful Motherhood Became a Nightmare

I remember riding in the back seat trying to hide the fact that I wasn't wearing a seatbelt. I made my husband drive because I was too distracted by my daydreams. I fantasized about getting in an accident. My husband and baby wouldn't get so much as whiplash, but I would somehow fly out of the windshield. For the first time in my life, I had a death wish.

About six weeks after I have birth, I started a rapid decline into a state of complete misery. I would stare at the blank wall, sometimes for an hour straight, listening to the negative thoughts circulating in my mind. The only thing I was capable of doing was putting on an act for my family, invest...

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