Food and emotional eating can fill a lot of gaps, holes, and crevices in our psyche. At least temporarily. Sometimes you can slather the extra helpings on so well and so consistently that you hardly have to think about the painful spots they cover up (or push down). Until you decide to make some changes. When you do, those uncomfortable places pop right back up.
And you know what's at the heart of perfectionism? The fear or belief of not being good enough.